I have no stupid pictures. I have no metal bands or overly indepth album reviews. I'm tired, and extremely stressed. I manage to put up energy for school, but i go home ready to collapse. I have so much anger pent up inside me, if someone even touches me, i'm going to explode.

I don't talk to other people about my problems. I don't like having them worry, or having them put up with it. They are my issues, so i'll deal with them alone. But i see people have commented on it. I'm boring. I'm tired. I never have any fun. I isolate myself.

You're damn right i do. You have no idea whats going on in my life, and i intend to keep it that way. I'm not going to burden you with my problems. But before you say anything, just remember that there are things that i can't control and stuff i am dealing with that i'm handling as best as i can. And yes, i love jackie and like to spend time with her. SO SUE ME. A girlfriend or boyfriend is supposed to be there for their significant other. And lately, i really needed her to be there for me.

I'm not going to talk about my oh so twoubled life. But i will talk about the only thing you guys have a clue on, (as i'm sure your all dying to hear the juicy info). One of the troubles in eddie. This entire year, he has been hitting me, punching me, slapping me, whipping me.... all out of random, everyday. I never really did anything about. Just took it. The more he would do it, the more it would bother me. Lately i would get angry and try to hit him or something. He seems to be very amused by the reaction. So he does it some more. Sometimes he does it the point that i'm ready to really hit him. But i never have. Last friday eddie pissed me off so much that i was ready to flip out in spasms from holding in all the anger. I was ready to beat the living crap out of him, but i didn't. I exploded in class. I had to ask to leave just so i wouldn't create a murder scene in 6th period. I have never dealt with that anger. But it deals with me everyday. I recurringly become angry for no apparent reason many times a day. I anger issues. I don't know. Maybe i should just kill eddie and get it over with.

So after seeing that glimpse of the troubles of my life (that you've all practically forced me to share), i'd like you to take some things in to consideration. If you ever see me being down or depressed, consider that there just might be a reason, and choose between two things to do. Either be a friend and be there for me, or just lay off.

Wow. Been a long time since i updated. Anyway, ya, life is the same. I'm not going to bitch about my life, because you don't really need to hear about it, and I don't have much to complain about. I feel like the luckiest guy in the world. Most of the time. Maybe I'm just ignorant. But at least I'm happy. 

I've been reading this philosophy book lately, (don't piss your pants, I'm not going to talk about philosophy for 2 hours), and ya, its pretty damn interesting, if not a little lacking (It's not the most in depth in the world). Its not a pure philosophy book, like others i've read, its a philosophy book and a history book. Anyway, the author said something pretty interesting......

"I believe that epistemology had kidnapped modern philosophy, and has well nigh ruined it; he hopes for the time when the study of of the knowledge-process will be recognized as the business of the science of psychology, and when philosophy will again be understood as the synthetic interpretation of all experience rather than the analytic description of the mode and process of experience itself."

                    - Will Durant

I'm not going to explain the words or the meaning of that quote. I don't like being all deep and brooding outside the privacy of my locked bedroom, not usually, so I'll just stop. Moving on.

REALLY COOL PEOPLE

Chris Farley

My body is made for plaaaysure......

I live in a van down by the river!!!!!!!!!

Johnny Cash

The baddest m***** f***** on the planet. And yes, he does play country music.

Frank

Duh.

The coolest stick figure on earth. Ever. Period. Just watch the entire thing. Especially you marc.

Hehe...Cool......

Celtic Frost....

For proving to us that you can still look like utter idiots, and maybe even be idiots, and still make good music and influence nearly every band that heard you.

Venom......

For being utter idiots and fags....

........Managing to make really crappy music......

.......and be one of the most influential metal bands of all time (probably even more than frost).

I can't post this picture, but here's the link. Please visit it. I guarantee you will laugh. http://www.metal-archives.com/band.php?id=128

These people.......

For playing way too many rpg's....

A happy tree friend.....

WOW!!!!

This guy....

......for the sheer ability to do this.

Me and My band busting out the death grindcore metal....

(with a banjo)

The Beatles....

For being as black as possible.

Paul McArtney

(I don't really like paul) For wearing that beautiful pin on his jacket. Right on Paul, right on.

Ringo Star

For being so damn ugly, and getting more ass than your toilet and back seat combined.

 Just, once again, proving my point.

And Now.....

Quite possibly the funniest, coolest, more amazing thing I have ever had the privelage to behold.........

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Well, I apologize for probably making you slower connection people lag. That was a lot of gifs.

Oh, and Khalid. Don't kill yourself man. You could have it worse off. Think about it. Oh, and I love you. I'm a queer and a pussy, ya ya, I know, but ya, i really do. Even though you can be a total idiot. Just don't kill yourself, there's plenty to live for.

Here I am again, talking about metal. Why do I do it? It's not like any of you guys really care, I don't think anyone I know cares much for metal (Khalid, yes you are the exception). Well, I just have so much freakin useless knowledge on metal, that it has to come out some how.

You guys are probably asking where the stupidity went. Well, during the year, I would upgrade my xanga during keyboarding class alot. Marc and me both would. Just having Marc in my presence makes me twice as stupid and sarcastic than I usually am. Around each other, we literally can't get ANY dumber. But, I haven't seen him in a while, and summer is depressing.

Well, lets begin with this entry that probably no one will read....

I found this new band called Strapping Young Lad. Nothing special. Pretty heavy. Fairly fast. No, I don't suggest them either Khalid, so don't ask me. Anyway, I was just curious to see what they looked like. And I found out. I know I said Shane Embury has the coolest hair on the planet, but this seriously ties him for it. Let me show you.....

That's right, it's the dude in the front, the lead singer. He has hair below his shoulders, yet he is bald.

Freakin Awesome!!!

Shane Embury is so cool because one, he is fat. Two, he has some seriously bizarre hair. Three, in my opinion, he is like the grand daddy of extreme metal. The dude here isn't that talented, can't really shred, and doesn't have a great voice either. But, dude, look at him, he is like a balding metal head nerd. How can you resist that.

There is alot of talk about this band Pantera. Personally, I think they are REALLY overrated. I might even go as far as to say that they suck. But I do respect them for one reason though. Back in the early ninties, metal wasn't popular, and nu metal was setting in. These guys came out, and stayed hard. They played true thrash, rather mediocre thrash, but true thrash none the less. That is until they sold out. I'll never forgive them for it. Anyway, my point is that I found some old pictures of Pantera. Very, very old pictures. Here is what they looked like around the time they split up....

Kind of like a metal band consisting of rednecks. Now here's what they looked like back in 88 and 89...

Holy crappola. Hole crappola indeed. I never thought they could look like such fags.

You may have heard of this one band called Slayer. If you haven't, don't speak to me again. Anyway, they aren't that talented, but I am a pretty big fan none the less. I mean, cmon, its Slayer. Well their guitarist, Kerry King, is pretty famous in the metal world, has that crazy tat that goes from arm to arm, and is never seen holding anything but a B.C. Rich. Here's a pic of him now....

Ya, your typical bald dude in a metal band, but still is cooler than all the rest. I found this pic of him back from the Show No Mercy tour, for their first album....

Is that even the same person? Beats the heck out of me.......

 I bet your asking who this fag is. Well, he definately is no fag. That, is Chuck Schuldiner, the single most talented metal musician to have ever existed. He started this band called Death, which I'm sure you have never heard of. Well, you should. They practically invented death metal. And perfected it. I don't like Dream Theatre's music, to me, that isn't true metal. But I can't deny the fact that they went to music school all their life. Whether I like their music or not, they are really good musicians, I can't deny that. Well, imagine Dream Theatre's talent, coming naturally to a person. That's what Chuck was like. He never went to a music school. He was just a natural. He invented Death metal, and then even invented some sub genres like melodic death metal and progressive death metal. Dream Theatre are in great debt to Chuck. With out him, there wouldn't be any Dream Theatre, or just about all the metal bands out there. Well, If you are reading this, I know you probably don't care about Chuck Schuldiner or Death metal, or any of that crap. So I'll just change the subject. Here is something random for you.....

No, your not seeing things. That is a five neck guitar. The dude from Cheap Trick plays it. How the buy plays the bottom neck is beyond me....

Wow, I haven't even cut my hair yet. So lazy. Well its five in the morning again. I'm leaving. See you guys.

WILLIAM SHATNER!!!.... AND SPOCK!!!.... TOGETHER!!!!

THROUGH MARRIAGE!!!!

RETARDED ICE SKATERS!!!!!

NUDISTS!!!!!

MORE NUDISTS!!!

YOUR REACTION!!!!

FABIO!!!!

KIDDIE SHOW ANIMAL PHONE SEX!!!!

A PROSTATE EXAM!!!!

D&D!!!

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Well, now that I have removed myself of all possible stupidity. Lets continue on in this huge entry

I'm sure you're all tired of me talking about metal. Well, I'm not. So shut up.

The people who play metal aren't exactly known for being the most approachable. Some of them looked like they would tear your face off. Well, most of them. Now for some reason, alot of bands that suck just happen to look like fags. Let me show you.....

Dream Evil....

, more like dream gay. Imagine taking Iron Maiden, adding nsync, and having them talk about stuff out of a D&D campaign. Utterly stupid.

Cradle of Filth.....

 These guys are about 40, yet they remind me of little 14 year old goth girls who think shopping at hot topic makes you hard. I hate these fags. They call themselves Black Metal. This is not Black Metal. Black metal are the people who are pagans and burn down churches. Did I mention cutting themselves onstage? These guys where more make up than my grandmother and yours combined.

Apocolyptica....

Now, Apocalyptica are a really great band. They play metal music on classical instruments, mix classical music and metal together, and the like. These guys took a cello, electrified, then distorted it.  Theres nothing like it, and i respect those guys for doing. I mean this band is like a wet dream to me. Metal and Classical? To damn awesome. I was curious to see what these guys looked like. I wish I never found out. That guy must have bought that at Hot Topic. Great music made by a couple fags.

Shane Embury.....

Don't get me wrong. The guy is awesome. He is, I believe, the last original member of the band that single handedly invented a genre of metal. Napalm Death practically birthed the grindcore scene, and are second only to the band that they influenced, and even surpassed them, Carcass. Well, anyway, this guy is hard. He can kick your ass any day. But his hair.... It's just so bizarre. Let me show you the evolution of Shane Embury's hair....

 Your looking at Napalm Death. Shane is the guy on the far right. It's like some kind of white boy afro, yet it's oval, and..... well, you can see that it's pretty bizarre. This is Napalm in it's earliest stages, or at least the oldest we can find on photograph.

 This is Napalm right before they went Death metal, when they were putting out some of the best Grindcore albums ever. Shane is on far left. He let is grow out, so it kind of hangs down.

This pic is like 5 to 10 years old. I don't know, I stopped following Napalm after a while, they started to suck. Shane is far left. No, it isn't in a pony tail. He cut it short. Real short. Why? I don't know. But now, Shane has grown his hair out, big time. It's the longest he ever had. What's wierd is that he is starting to bald. It has to be seen to be believed...

 Notice the front, his hair is receding, but only in the middle.

 Here is a shot of him behind a stage light. You can really see how big his hair is from here.

 I found this awesome shot of him head banging. You can see the bald spot in the middle of his head.

Now, with that, I have just shown you why Shane Embury has the coolest hair style on the planet. A balding, frizzy mullet. Well, not exactly a mullet, but I don't know what you would call that kind of hair.

Cult of Luna.....

 One word. Well, two. Ok, I'll invent a word. Emofags. These guys are under Earache Records, the record label that sponsors bands like carcass and decapitated. How the hell did they sign on to Earache? I don't know. This is hardcore heavy metal, if your idea of death metal is Linkin Park and Limp Bizkit.

Gandalf....

 They called themselves Gandalf. That alone makes them fags.

Chris Barnes....

Now, Chris Barnes is hard. Really hard. In fact, he started what could be the hardest, most extreme death metal band on the planet, Cannibal Corpse. Ya, even the name just gives it away. Anyway, every metal head shuns me for saying this, but he looks like a fag. I don't think dreadlocks belong in death metal period. Remind of freakin P.O.D. or something. Sickening. Oh, and just to add to the shunning, Barnes can't do death metal growl for beans.

Decapitated....

This is probably the best death band out now. They are the future of death metal as we know it. And don't get me wrong, these do look hard, but their guitarist was born looking like piglet.

Move past the crazy looking bald skin head, past the dude with hair below his shoulders and looks like hasn't been in the sun for a few years, to the very back. It's the guy with kind of bleached hair. Is it just me, or is that the spitting image of piglet?

H.I.M.

These guys make what they call "Love Metal." More like "Pussy Metal." These guys suck, and blow. When I ask an emo kid if they listen to metal, this band always comes up. The members all add together in the formula for a gay metal band. A ver scary, feminine looking singer who looks like a pedophile, a fat bald guy, a guy with dreadlocks, and a guy wearing a cow boy hat. These guys make me think of what would happen if you mixed Linkin Park and Bon Jovi together.

Just look at one of their album covers. Looks like a poster for a gay club or something.

 Do you see what I mean by feminine looking pedophile? I prove my point.

Death Angel

Now, these guys are by no means gay. At all. These guys are awesome, its just that you never see anything like this in metal. Ever. All the members are asian, some are half asian, half black. Each of them is at least half Filipino. Not a single person in this band is remotely white. Bizarre. When they first formed as a band, they released their first record with each of them ranging from 17 - 19, and their drummer was 14. Despite being young, and not white, these guys kick ass. I know you guys would kill me for saying this, but its the truth, these guys are twice as talented as Slayer. Well, Slayer isn't very talented to begin with.

Well, that took a while. It's almost 5 in the morning. So i'll go now. See you losers at school.

*WARNING* This entry is huge, and talks about nothing but metal. If you have no interest in metal, you should probably just leave and go to some on elses xanga, and listen to them whine about whatever their parents won't buy them. With that out of the way, I'll start.

After some carefull deliberation, I have come to a conclusion. What I'm about to say could have me shot down by just about every right minded metal head...

Master of Puppets...

is over rated.

There, It's been said.

Now, before you send me death letters, let me explain to you why MoP is over rated. I will break it down in to songs for you.

1. BATTERY- Battery is an awesome track that sounds like it came off of their first LP, Kill Em' All. Its fast, brutal (by Metallica's standards), and seems almost like an anthem, similar to their track on Kill Em' All, Metal Militia. This is one of the best tracks on the record. No doubt.

2. MASTER OF PUPPETS- I have listened a damn good amount of metal in my day. More, no, WAY more than your average metal head (thats right Khalid, I'm talking about you). Everything from Early Black Sabbath, to Slayer, to (what some other people call Metal...) Dream Theatre. None of it even holds a candle to this song. None of it. This is an absolute masterpiece. To me, this song is on par with Led's Stairway to Heaven, Queens' Bohemian Rhapsody, and Beethoven's 5th Symphony (that's right, I'm a big classical fan. Surprised?) It has a kick ass intro, some of the best lyrics in metal, it even has an interlude that sounds like it was written for classical guitar, and a great ending. The best metal song every written, and one of the best in any genre. Period.

3. THE THING THAT SHOULD NOT BE- This song is long (like every other song on this album). I'd say, unnecessarily long. The lyrics are cool, though. Metallica takes their hand on legends and mythological creatures (something Iron Maiden has mastered like no one else). It is a little corny, but it's still cool. Now, in terms of the riffs. I'd say half of this song is filled with filler riffs to back up the good ones. Don't get me wrong, there are some really good riffs in here. Some. But the rest are just filler. A good song, but nothing special.

4. SANITARIUM- On the black album, Metallica wrote their second biggest hit, Nothing Else Matters. Lets be truthful people. We love Metallica, but really, that was an out right Power Ballad. No, it was worse than a Power Ballad. It wasn't even about a chick. It was about self empowerment. Yes, it's completely normal if you feel like you've lost hope in metal, but there still is hope. Anyway, moving on.  Sanitarium, aside from Fade to Black and One, is the closest thing Metallica did to a Power Ballad, while remaining the undisputed Kings of Thrash. This song is about a guy who loses his mind in a insane asylum. Probably the best lyrics they ever wrote. This song keeps a good balance between melody and heaviness. Although I like Fade to Black better, this is probably a close second. This song is right up there with Battery. Simply great.

5. DISPOSABLE HEROES- We start to see early workings of the Metallica they would later become on their ...And Justice For All record. The politically conscience Metallica. Yes, sounds wierd, but It's true. Anyway, this definately no where near as intelligent as their later stuff, but it's an interesting effort. Its about the horrors of war, and the importance of a soldier and how war affects him. Well, lyricals aside, this song is similar to The Thing that Should Not Be. Although better, in my opinion, it still has a bit of filler to it. Overall, an above average metal song, but we can expect better from Metallica.

6. LEPER MESSIAH- This is most definately the worst song Metallica ever made, and probably one of the worst metal song I have ever heard (you have no idea how much that is saying). True this album has the masterpiece MoP and their ballad Sanitarium, and then it has this stinking pile of crap. This is unforgivable Metallica, do you hear me? Simply unforgivable.

7. ORION- I'm sick of people telling me of what a masterpiece this song is. Ok people, just keep telling your self that sliding power chords up and down the neck of you B.C. Rich is brilliant. The song must have two different parts, each repeating themselves every 30 seconds. This lasts for about 7 minutes. Have you ever heard of this one song Metallica wrote called Call of Ktulu? Now, that is definately Metallica's intrumental masterpiece. Not these 7 minutes of repitition.

8. DAMAGE, INC.- This song is fairly long. It has average riffs. Average lyrics. It's fairly enjoyable, but not at all memorable. If i were to give it a grade, it would probably be C-. I don't have much to say about this song. I don't hate it, I don't love it. It's just o.k.

Now I have explained to you this album. This album is definately a mixed bag. Metallica recorded their best song and their worst song on the same record. I'd probably say this is either Metallica's second or third best record.

I just had to type this. Sorry if it bored you, but I just had an urge to talk about it. See you at school with longer hair and a thicker beard.